dear evryone who screwed up my fvckin days because of unknown reason,i dont know…
(no no,it’s not you mrx)
are u really mad at me?am i dissapointed u?
just come ,ask me,tell me wht’s bothering ur mind!?
or did i hurt u?
mybe i could throw the rocks that’s closing ur mind from me these days..?
or mybe it’s just some missunderstanding situation,tht come from me to ur thought..
say something!!
i feel so freakishly
UNMOTIVATED
x(
jempol tangan kanan saya bengkak and it fvckn hurts.it feels like i lost my hand,(yeah considering im a righty,dan jika dilihat dari titik tumpu,smua beban selalu dibebankan ke jempol,so which means kerjaan saya jadi terhambat karena tangan kanan saya jadi tidak bisa difungsikan secara normal.and if u do not belive this,berdoalah minta jempol anda2 skalian berpenyakit sperti saya dan rasakan sensasinya.. x)
lalu menurut survey dari orang2 yang melihat kelainan di jempol saya,some said gara2 kseringan sms (hey hey,im not tht maniac,pemakaian sms saya masih dibawah normal), ada juga yang bilang keracunan gara2 digigit cicak waktu tidur (*sigh*,why cicak??knp ga skalian aj ada sapi ngenyot jempol saya waktu tidur?, then yang paling realistis ada yang bilang gara2 kebayakan ngintip (Omigod,sjak kapan efek ngintip bintitan di mata bisa pindah ke jempol?)
karena kecewa dengan jawaban2 yang tidak bisa membawa jempol saya ke masa2 kejayaanya lagi,saya give up nanya2 lagi,saya biarin aj.,emang mungkin jempol saya lagi di uji sama YME puasa2 gini..xp.
So the lesson is:
though just only a tiny lil’ part of somethin that is beraking (in my case was my thumb in the united parts of my hand),it could screwed everything.yeah.. saya kudu pasrah do my stuff with computer dg gerak terbatas( ga bisa ceting sambil koprol misalnya and so on and so on),kudu sabar ga bisa do evrything normaly (contoh kecil aj,kek pake celana,ngucir rambut,pake baju,buka bungkus makanan,buka tutup botol,sms pake ngage yang notabene keypadnya di sblah kanan,ngegas motor,nyetir,ngupil..yeah.. lil stuff like tht,yang dulunya sering kita remehin and g kita anggep,then now become sesuatu yang susaaaaahh banget).yah… setidaknya saya masih bisa bersyukur selepas jempol saya sembuh,bisa saya pakek lagi kek biasa.Trus gimana nasib orang2 yang parts of their hands uda ga lengkap lagi,or mybe even parts of their whole body?? we should feel more thankful,with evrythin tht we owned… though one by one they gone and ga bisa berfungsi lagi sbagaimana mestinya.. u’ll be so thankful when u realized that u’ve ever had them….x)
oh ye,liburan uda di dpan idung.which means kesepian lagi di jogja!kyaaaa….. YM pun sepi… emang disana ga ada warnet y?se’ndesa’ apa si kota kaliaan?? x’( wikkikikik xp
so,jadi rencana2 saya for fill this holiday and kill my boreness eh bored ness,rrr… boringness.. tae’ lah pokoknya maskutnya kebosanan.. xp adalah sbagai berikut:
1. Rented lots of movies . so far uda dapet 3 film uda saya tonton.and ketambahan 2 film yang tadi malem saya pinjem lagi,jadi klo diitung2 pake rumus dimensi balok tinggal sisa 9 film lagi.heuhuehe.. doaakan saya!
2. Baca! currently reading : the devil and miss prym,fight club,and beberapa edisi reader’s diggest yang blum sempet kebaca.
3. Ngebo..!
4. still ngeboo!
5. food hunting.. it’s like years i didnt do this stuff (always my pleassure to find a fine foodplace tht i never been there before.. it feels like finding a treassure eh?)
6. city stroooollliiinngg dengan makluk2 sisa di jogja sperti saya… (secara jalur yang ada di otak saya sudah tersistem jogja-jakal pp)
7. make some art (ngecat tembok xp)
8. reuni SD.. yukmari.. x)
9. nyicil tugas ( gyahha klo yang ini cuman buat menuh2in list doang)
hohoho,tyt banyak juga.. yaudah folx,sblun kalian2 pada eneg,bacain postingan saya (kek ada yang baca aj…xp) yang entah bisa dikategorikan mutu ato ga ini,lebih bae saya sudahpun…. !
signing out.. //monster
mengutip wejangan si mbah ruben,..
"kalo saia pribadi, being an adventurer itu fun. though u might fall
hard in the end. but that’s the essence of adventure, aight? pengalaman
bagaimanapun bentuknya… menjadikan orang lebih dewasa."
cuman mo bilang "I’m agree..!"
hehehuee…
and mybe tht’s wht it called long life learning isnt it,ben?
NOFX - Bleeding heart disease
Do(ugh): what our lives are lived for
Ray: just a crazy Aussie
Me: the generation forges on
Fah: -dder for corporations
Sew: -wing our lips together
LA: such a nice place to get shot. But don’t forget the
T(ee): it follows "liber" in the constitution, following the part about pursuit… of happiness the byproduct of colonial precious metal mine extracts which brings us back to
Do(ugh)
do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do
Today I saw a kid torture a cat
Too much leisure teenage norman rockwell paints it black
How: did the chain get started
Mo(re): is what everyone wants
Nee: -dy is what none of us are
Co: -operation died last night
Rupt: -ured bleeding heart foresight
Me: I’m just a loo.
So don’t expect the best, you won’t be disappointed when you take a bite and watch the worm crawl back inside.
Don’t believe the fairy tales of million-dollar happiness,
los angelestic lifestyles drinking chardonnay.
Pursue the million-dollar happiness.
do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do
The pursuit of million dollar happiness
Happiness was killed we watched it bleed
Some say it died from hate
Some say from bleeding heart disease
After
setelah sekian lama
i felt so fvckn numb,
Finally
saya
kembali
berhasrat
buat
serius
kuliah
lagi
..
wht a great news
at least
..
for me
itself..
Damn,
hari pertama masuk kuliah : I SKIP IT!
dan pelajaran yang bisa diambil adalah: jagan sok yakin bisa bangun pagi if which in fact u totally in trouble with ‘wake up in the morning’ things.
so the story begun when i slept 2 days in a arow in amrx’s crib to finish my project.Then sudah kebiasaan mata kalo udah diadepin sama ‘tugas’,ugh ga bisa dah yang namanya stay open.pengenya merem aja… sungguh gembus!
impact nya ya tadi pagi itu.I counted tht kira2 mata saya bisa diajak kerja sama dengan sedikit paksaan sampei pukul 5 saja.But the next problem was "wht should i do sembari nungu kuliah ‘metoper perdana saya yang djadwalkan kudu saya tempuh pukul 09.30."apaka saya bisa menyempatkan diri utk tidur sejenak??(then my brain yelled NO!!)
So.. i played the my name is earl dvd tht i rented couple weeks ago (damn!!i just realized it,i must return it at least a week ago,bad ndel,totally bad!!).But cant wait longer for 2 episodes i,succedly fall aslept in front of my notebook.till… 12.00!DANG!! (but luckyly,amrx had a same problem as me.so she skip her class too cuz she cant woke up early like we used to plan.. ahahaha we’re really full time sleep addcts,SCORE!!)
fuih,..
i m still wondering,knapa pas liburan kmaren,dengan gagahnya mata saya bisa terus terbuka sampei pagi tanpa ada paksaan sedikitpun bahkan dengan sogokan koffi.
But now,ketika masa2 perkuliahan diambang kepintuan (hayah),baru jam satu saja sudah diambang kengantukan (tahi sumpah bahasanya)…
OMIGOD,…
the hell must be still wide open for ppl like us…
wakkakkakaak xp
well,
i’ll go….
I’m afraid to ask but I need to know
Would you want me to stay?
Or would you want me to go?
If u havnt known yet with the "wht the
hell is going on.." and "the facts" and
stuffs…
dont ever blame, judge, and call anybody
with all the fvckn words tht u’ve made
from ur own judgment…’
u’ll be ashame when u’ve found out the
truth,and face tht u were totally wrong!!
grow up!
